it all started in june. we have been talking about getting an addition in our family long before this and we actually planned to have a july baby next year. that would mean we would have to do the necessary by september.
however a wind of change came upon us on that fateful month whereby we just knew that it is time to go for it.
so the journey (back dated) started on the 9th of june. i think that was my first day of period. so i would have to wait about 10 to 15 days after that of which this is the time where i am most fertile. unfortunately the decision to go for it came on the 17th day. what the heck we just tried and hopefully something fruitful would come out of it. according to the experts, i would have to wait about 14 days after that and then test whether i am pregnant or not.
around the 2nd week of july i did a test. it turned out to be negative. i still had hope cos i still did not get my period. there was no spotting or bleeding as well. i did another test on the 17th hoping that i would have good news to tell my family before we went for our terengganu trip. and still only one lonely pink line. shucks. but still no period. i did have some nauseous spells on and off, but i brushed it off as it could be anything. and my third test was on the 23rd. still negative, and there were traces of blood. it was too late already to have much hope but i googled 'bleeding during pregnancy' and this is what i got from
http://edition.cnn.com/HEALTH/library/PR/00087.html :
"Implantation. You may notice a small amount of vaginal bleeding very early in pregnancy, about 10 to 14 days after fertilization. This "implantation bleeding" happens when the fertilized egg attaches to the lining of your uterus. It's usually earlier, spottier and lighter in color than a normal menstrual period, and it doesn't last long. Some women mistake this light bleeding for a period and don't realize they're pregnant".
this fact was the only thing that kept me going. i knew that it was a long shot so i prepared hubby for it. and even though i know that it is still possible, there was that tinge of doubt as well.
the last few days prior to the charity visit weekend was tiring and exhausting. i was running around trying to get everything organised especially on that friday evening. since we had only one car as hubby's car was in the workshop i had to wait for him to come back from work at 4pm then i could go out and buy the things that i needed. right up to that saturday night, i really had lack of sleep and as proof on that saturday itself i had a horrible headache of which i got rid off with 2 panadols.
sunday was eventless except that we skipped church as i slept until 1pm. in the evening hubby had his normal football match. but come monday, which was a devastation for me. i had a full blown 'visit' from my monthly visitor. all hopes were dashed. i am not pregnant. i think my period was irregular this month because of the anxiety of wanting so much to get pregnant and the stress i had with the charity visit planning. gosh. it was a pretty sad day for me. i quickly mentioned to hubby that i had my period but i hid the dissapointment by telling him that we will do it right the next month. sigh...
what a roller coaster moment for us this month. everything went by so quickly and now it is 2 more days to august. i barely have time to write long posts like this or to even update my other 3 blogs.
but whatever it is Getting Pregnant Month 2 - Operation (R&R) Rest and Relax is in motion now. i will be watching my diet as well as hubby's and consuming lots and lots of good nutrients and vitamins. i think it happens naturally and we should not push for it. so just relax and let nature takes its course. i am sure we will be successful this time. Yiii peeee...
I am used to getting new revelations on what to write about every single day of my life. At one time I wanted to talk about God and how He had blessed us so abundantly, but somehow I did not know where to jot it down. So now based on my hubbys' advice, he has suggested that I opened up a new blog that talks about people's life and their testimony while living in the light of God. Thus today I will start with this verse -
"I didn't believe what was said until I arrived here and saw it with my own eyes. In fact, I had not heard the half of it! Your wisdom and prosperity are far beyond what I was told. … Praise the Lord your God, who delights in you and has placed you on the throne of Israel. Because of the Lord's eternal love for Israel, he has made you king so you can rule with justice and righteousness." … So King Solomon became richer and wiser than any other king on earth.1 Kings 10:7, 9, 23
I have not led a very simple life before this. I felt that I had to take one step up in front of everybody in order to survive and maintain my sanity. I felt that I had to work 10 times harder than anyone else to earn a little bit of respect and dignity.
Until I met my husband.
Ever since then, life has become a blessing for us and we kept on wanting to do good things for other people. We know that what God gives us, He can take it away it also. Thus with this principle in mind, we were never selfish with what we have and we tried to chip in in anyway we can.
The LORD was very angry with Solomon, for his heart had turned away from the LORD, the God of Israel, who had appeared to him twice. He had warned Solomon specifically about worshiping other gods, but Solomon did not listen to the LORD's command. So now the LORD said to him, "Since you have not kept my covenant and have disobeyed my decrees, I will surely tear the kingdom away from you and give it to one of your servants. 1 Kings 11:9-11.
All I am saying is that even though we have all the money in the world, it is still not ours for our lives is not for us, but it is for our children and their children. We are borrowing this world from them, and it is our responsibility to ensure that it is still there for them when it is their turn to toil their own soil.
So whatever blessings that you get today, make sure to share with another tomorrow. I assure you that God will bless you with more.
