So sad.
Only one, and it is already March.
I have skipped about 20 weeks of my baby's development, and boy, I can tell you a lot has happened in this 5 months or so.
As you might all know, I am due soon, and I am already at week 34!!!! Can you believe that? In 2 weeks time I will be at my 9th month and then... pop goes the baby. Takutnye!
As usual the symptoms are all there. Back pain, pelvic pain, leg pain, feet pain. You name it. But as some people had advised, think happy positive thoughts and the baby will definitely feel that.
A little something on the baby, as at the last scan I went to, which was on Monday:
~ Baby is 2.4kg. No wonder so heavy.
~ He is still in a breech position, that means my lil man is not ready to venture out yet. So it will take some time
~ He has about 2cms of hair. My gynae said - panjangnya rambut. Not sure whose gene he's following.
~He was sleeping that morning so could not get a look at his cute face.
~ But previous 3D scans showed that he had my flat nose and looked like Angelus.
~ Baby is very active as my gynae had to position him by massaging my tummy. The next minute he changed his position and completely blocked his face. My gynae was indicating that he might decide to come out earlier.
~ I am due to fly back soon. But because of circumstances, I wanted to delay further. Doc said it is not advisable as I can deliver from 37 weeks onwards. (But I want to be here for Easter!!.. sigh...)
~ I have only gained 0.1kg from the last appointment 2 weeks ago. It must be that streneous trip I had during the holidays. Angelus can be quite a handful. My other boy too. :D
So that's it. I am still in dilemma about a lot of things. And although I am not working, managing a school-going son, a clingy hubby (I love you), CFO (Chief Family/Financial) of the house and investments/projects, I do feel pretty worried.
Gosh, it's 1pm. Gotta pick up my son now. Till the next time......
I really cannot recall if my nausea was this bad during my first pregnancy. I noticed it now triggers whenever I feel anxious or excited or nervous about something. Oh my. Now I have to be a boring emotionless person in order for my nausea attacks to be in control. Hmmm.. Oh dear.
That leaves me with nothing much to do. Sleep, eat, blog and watch tv. Oh gosh.
But you know la me. Mind over matter is the in thing for hubby and I currently. So I squeeze in a few evening walks now and then, coupled with doing the laundry, cleaning, mild shopping and eating out. I am beginning to lose interest in eating out nowadays also. The level of cleanliness has somehow declined and the pregnancy has alleviated my sense of smell to almost bionically impossible to explain. Uurrgh. Thinking about it does not help either. Ok change of topic.
So what do I do when I am faced with all these challenges.
1. Drink lots of limau (lemon) water or juice.
2. Chew bubble gum
3. Take deep breaths
4. Eat home cooked food (I miss my mummy's cooking and sister's soup)
5. Stop breathing if I see or smell anything remotely disgusting (walk away fast!)
6. Close my eyes (same as no. 5)
7. If I really have to do something disgusting, that is when my mind over matter kicks in. Oh my goodness, that one drains out most of my enery, man!!! Bleeehhh....
8. Sniff Vicks or minyak angin
9. When there is a lot of air in my tummy (like last night - continuously burping out the air), I lie down, put some medicated oil on my tummy and try to push the air out. It almost feels like having gastric, that's why I need the air to go out fast).
10. No gas drinks at all (I learned my lesson already!)
Urrgh.. Mind over matter.. Mind over matter..
to come across women who goes through a lot to get pregnant, but yet fail and fail again, makes me feel that i am among those who are blessed. we did tried once and failed once, but to get it right the second time, is indeed a miracle.
i am already in the beginning of my first trimester, a period where i should be resting and not walk too much as we wait for the implantation to the wall of my uterus is done.
however since i have this cough and flu after my trip to indon, i seem to be having mild asthma now and then. whenever i climb up the stairs etc, i will be having shortness of breath and i can feel that my lungs are blocked by phlegm, most probably. also after the flu medicine last night, i was knocked out even though i slept in the afternoon.
and today, i still feel sleepy and a little bit fatigue.
i think this time around i am going on a strict nutritious diet and exercise well so that i do not gain too much of unnecessary kilos. i know breastfeeding would slash those pounds away, but it does not hurt to be a gorgeous pregnant 30 year old mum now isn't it?
so my regime starts now.
we have already gotten names for the babe as well, both for male and female. wowee, the first (by blood) grandchild for the Doss family.
also while i was shopping for some stuff yesterday, i could not help feeling a little bit mortified because here it has been mummy and angelus for 6 years, and now there is another addition to this equation. i feel sort of scared that the bond that i have with son would be minimalised and diverted to this lil person in me. sort of scared of the changes. especially something that i cannot foresee in the future. son means the world to me and he has already shown his intelligence and obedience and compassion and leadership in such a young age. i am just afraid that his little bro/sis might be of different character than him, something that hubby and i cannot handle. sigh..
i think i will end this post with this verse..
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
They cannot be numbered!
I cant even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!
Psalm 139:16–18
i believe that God has set out a course for everyone. i guess i only have to believe in Him and trust in His plans..
To discipline a child produces wisdom,
but a mother is disgraced by an undisciplined child. …
Discipline your children, and they will give you peace of mind
and will make your heart glad.
Proverbs 29:15, 17
In this family of mine, hubby and I do not tolerate laziness, talking back, no manners and lying. That is what we live by when disciplining our son. It is difficult to actually maintain our poise when the other parent is busy scolding cos the other one might disagree or do not want to torment the child further.
Just the other day son was is an unacceptable situation whereby he completely lost his manners. so hubby was pretty angry about that and son got it from him. i kept quiet but i did scolded him (to show that i disapprove it as well) but i was not the main disciplinarian at that time. Hubby and I each got our moments whereby one of us was the main disciplinarian. The other would scold to disapprove but not to the extent of beating to avoid tormenting son further.
So make sure there is enough disciplining going on at your home as well as balance it out with constant love, care and encouragement when he/she deserves it.
i was drowned with utmost remorse and disgust when i read in the papers yesterday, that a barely day old baby was found ababndoned in a drain near ara damansara. several kongsi workers heard the baby's cries and was actually taken aback at first, fearing that it was a ghost or something. but luckily they came back and managed to find the baby, full with insect bites and was a little bit blue because of the cold.
in relation to my topic, i am really angry because here i am waiting and praying to conceive, there are still people out there who consider the greatest miracle God had bestowed on us, as a piece of rubbish, waiting to be discarded away just like that.
my prayers are with the little baby whom is now recuperating well in University Malaya Medical Centre. God bless him..
